You know how it goes. Time flies and before you know it you're looking back uttering those dreaded words to yourself, "if I had only done _____." I'm not talking about regrets. I don't believe in those. What I'm talking about is that nagging feeling that you wouldn't be dealing with a certain something if you had just made the "right" choice when you had the chance. For some it's finishing school when life was less complicated instead of balancing work and school and family. For some it's paying off credit card debt when there were less obligations and responsiblities. For some it's that last 5 or 10 pounds that then turned into a MUCH larger problem...no pun intended.
I fall in that last category. Way back when, I devoted myself to fitness and wellness and I was a picture of good health. I found a love for the gym, healthy food, running, cycling, and triathlons. In the process I had lost 40 pounds and gained the person I knew I always was. Then "real life" happened. I went to grad school, moved away, got a full-time job, met P, got married, and gained 50 pounds. Wait, WHAT?! Did I say FIFTY? Who does that? (At least that's what my brain says)
Saying that outloud physically hurts. Fif....wait for it....fift.....waiiittttt......fifty (vomit). That's a huge number. That huge number is accompanied by my huge a*! and I have to look at it in the mirror every day. I know that everyone who looks at me thinks about it.
So here I am. I've been wanting to document my journey for quite some time but it's taken me awhile to work up the guts to actually admit to the world, and myself, that I've let things go this far. I ran a 5k yesterday and I crossed the finish line at 38:25. Someone looking at me for the first time might think, "great job...good effort...way to go for finishing!" I see someone who, just last year,
completed a Half Ironman and can barely finish a 5k. I see a time 12 minutes slower than my 5k time just a few years ago and it makes me want to crawl into a hole.
I hope to share my journey with those who care to be a part of it. This isn't about weigh-ins and calorie counting. This is about challenges, successes, and experiences along the way. I hope you will laugh, think, learn, dream, and walk this path with me!